Lonliness. Idk if it’s because i’m back at school after Easter or…
Back to feeling lonely again in a room full of people. I guess I really just need a girl friend to laugh with and help pick out outfits with without feeling completely ridiculous. I never really had a close girl friend like that. People who have that are lucky and will never know the appreciation. Having a best friend as a boyfriend is sooo wonderful.. but sometimes you just need your girlfriends. Which is where none come in. I feel really negative right now about school and life. School mainly because I just got everything piled on top of me except I can’t see the light at the top of the pile. I keep feeling dirt being thrown on top of me and my body sinking into the earth deeper and deeper and my body just gets weaker. I don’t feel the confidence or motivation that I normally feel when the time of the school year gets like this. 7 more weeks. Just 7. But what comes after that? Summer. meaning a new job. which I have to go hunt for. I just want to retire now and be rich, fabulous, and toned. oh yeah and lazy.
anyone else feel me??
“As an actor I want to play different kinds of women and I don’t want to be associated with a certain look for each part because I want to be allowed to age. The wonderful thing about the different roles I’ve had is that they look so different.” Jessica Chastain
umm… this woman makes me have hope!
(Source: chastaineds)
